Christianity: It Has No Right to Speak That Way

Well going to church that day and hearing what the Sunday school teacher had to say just made me dislike church even more. and it came to my attention that Christianity is one of the most stuck up religions. at least in my eyes.

When people first hear that I am a christian that does not like church and really dislikes the bible they are stunned, angered, and saddened. Most of them ask me why I think that way, why I dislike church and the bible. And when I tell them my answer and that’s when the anger starts boiling into hatred. In my eyes The bible and church are only their for show. It is only their so that people can go around saying oh I go to church I love god and  Blah blah blah. It is like a rich person shoving in someones face that they just bought a new fancy car. In my eyes if you believe in god and love him you should not have to prove yourself to anyone. And that’s why when my friend dragged me to church a few weeks back I was so angered. I knew that I would end up hearing all this bullshit about how you should fear god and how god is so great. What I did not expect was how stuck up I would soon find out Christians really are.

It started off with the usual. everyone came into Sunday school, sit down, and chat until class tarted. My friend, my sister, and I ended up getting their a little late so they were just starting to talk about the topic for that day. and praying before they did. while everyone else sat praying with their eyes closed, I sat their starring at all of them. I was disgusted at how they felt they needed to close their eyes and all pray just for god to do what? bless them? So after their whole praying was up they began their discussion for that day. It was about peer pressure. Yea okay so this might be a nice topic to talk about I was thinking. The teacher asked the class what they all thought peer pressure was. what good peer pressure was and whats bad peer pressure. That was fine I mean after all everyone faces peer pressure. What really started to make me twitch in my seat with frustration was when peer pressure and asked us who we would pick. Our friends/ the people who are peer pressuring us to do something or god. Tick, Bing, I was done, right then and their I was pissed. because the thought of not being able to choose for myself was absolutely not in favor. it was either I pick the choice god would want me to make ot the choice my friend would. So I raised my hand, hoping to elaborate on these kids my opinion on this issue. I told them about the times I had to deal with peer pressure. I told them about the time my friends tried to get me to smoke pot. I explained to them that me saying no to them had nothing to do with how I feel what god would want me to say or do. That in the end it was my choice because I did not want to turn out like them. I did not want to ruin my life just for a few hours, a few days, and even a few years of basic fun. The faces that looked at me after I had told my story were ones of shock. but they did not say anything more. instead after a few seconds of gawking at me in mixed horror or shame they continued on with their discussion like I did not say a word. My friend however was not please at what I had to say and smacked me right on the knee. I could see in her eyes that she wanted to yell at me but right then I did not care. So as the teacher talked on more and more about god and how weak Christians were ones that fear man to much and god not enough. That flipped me off the lid. The fact that someone could sit their and say that we should fear god and not fear man was by far the most idiotic thing I had ever heard. In my eyes god is like my parent and people should not fear their parents. if they fear their parents then their is something wrong such as child abuse or worse. I respect god. just like I respect my parents. but I do not fear him. I should have the right to question my god. though I should not question him all the time (which I don’t) I should at least be allowed to question him every once in a while. especially when something I do or say counter acts what supposedly god would want. The worst part of all the experience was at the end when they had their ending prayer. the teacher had said something about asking god to help them say no to peer pressure. and then asked something like how do we say know to our friends who may try to influence us or peer pressure us that are not Christians it was like she was saying that Christians are perfect and never are a bad influence and would never do anything bad like drinking or smoking. After that I had had enough. My friend had wanted me to stay for the other part of church. I said straight up no and took my moms keys and went to wait in the car.

I think differently then most Christan’s do. It is because I am open minded. I do not sit their and judge good and evil by how god wants me to judge/ see it. I see it as how I want to see it. I have a satanist for a boyfriend and everyone I know who is christian dislikes me for it. they view me as a sinner. though I do not have the same views as things as my boyfriend does. (like I do not like satin were as he does) I still allow him to have those thoughts and do not judge him for them. I do not try and push my religion on him. sometimes I may disagree with what he has to say but I do not put him down for what it is he has to say. nor do I sit their and call him evil just because he does not like god. That is why I feel Christians and Lutherans and so on arejust stuck up religions. They only see things one way. and that is gods way. But I do not view everything as gods way. I view them as my way, my family’s way, my friends way, as the whole worlds way. not just my own and not just gods.

Hopefully one day people will come to see this and accept it. And learn that not everything the bible has to say is true.